Hypnotize me thin

I had read in the Enquirer about a woman that had lost 50 pounds because she had an imaginary operation. Through hypnosis she was told that she had gotten gastric bypass surgery. She was told under hypnosis that she was being wheeled in to the operating room and being put under anesthesia.

When I read this, I just knew that this was the thing for me. I went to the website gmband.com and read more and then realized they were in Spain. I would have to fly to Spain in order to do this. I thought I have no choice, I have to go to Spain. I am so sure that this is going to work for me and so sure that it would save my life.

You see, one of my gums got an abscess. My teeth are rotting away above the gum line. It just snuck up on me. I had not gone to a dentist in 20 years and they had been decaying. I was feeling awful about it because I was worried that a heart attack would sneak up on me.

Then I remembered that there was people that get hypnotized to stop smoking, maybe they do that for eating. I found a place, called and have an appointment tomorrow. I am so sure that this is going to work that I did not hesitate. I did not care about the price, I had to do this to save my life.

I am going to chronicalize what happens to me as I take this journey. I want to give others hope.

I guess I should start by putting a picture of myself, but I can't do that right now, so I am going to put up a drawing that my son did of me. Later on I will put a picture up but I will need at least a couple of months before I will be able to post it. In the meantime, I will tell you how I am doing. The other thing I don't think I can get on a scale either. I honestly think that I will become so down about it that I would not do me any good and probably would set me back a could of months. All will be revealed, though.

My goal is not just the weight, it is also to get off the CPAP machine that I have had for 15 years. 15 years. I can't believe I have been on it that long. I don't hate it, it saved my life, but I want to be free from it. No more getting wrapped up in the hose as I sleep, no more worrying about taking it with me on trips.

Every single waking moment I am reminded of my fatness. Either by trying to tie my shoes, to wiggling into my parachute size underwear to avoiding exercise and people. I want to be just like everybody else. I don't need to be sexy or thin, just normal.